a hole in the mask

i should seriously take a break from writing on tourism policies. its giving me a headache. no classes today, feels awesome to be at home! waking up in the afternoon instead of the usual 0700. happy happy!

anyways, yesterday night i went out with K. was supposed to catch a movie but unfortunately, his friend met with an accident. so we rushed rushed to Changi General Hospital. i think his friend wasn't as badly injured as his girlfriend. ahhh i kinda feel bad for the girl actually. she had a broken neck? man oh man..

H1N1 is causing a lot of problem seriously. all that tracking, stickers, temperature-taking, masks yada yada yada. so troublesome. i mean, you are in a rush to see a friend and then you have to go through all that. waste a lot of time knoww. then the best part? they say only one visitor at a time. haiyohhhhh! K was annoyed with the whole policy.


so while we take turns to visit his friend, this is what you get. hahah, the eyeballs are too much for me to handle. arhhhhhhh! while K was inside, his other friend talked to me. he asked me lots of questions, it felt like an oral examination but it was cool. he was nice.


the sticker very nice right? as compared to TP's small round stickers. hahaha! and and can you see the colour of my nails? I SUKEEE! ok lah actually cannot really see here. hahaha. my sister said that my nails look really small now.

well as for his friend & the gf (whose names fail me), i hope they will recover soon and be back on their feet sooner than they think. a reminder to others, DRIVE SAFELY!

should i go clubbing tomorrow? SUHARA/NAS do you want to join me (:

let's go to the drug store.

AHHHHHH so much things to update about, i can't recall everything. but maybe pictures can help me recall what i've been up to lately. hahaha. but more importantly, ROLLY AND I WENT TO DO OUR NAILS TODAY! rolly burst my manicure cherry. lol. it felt so awkward when the person started filing my nails. i was so uneasy about the whole thing and couldn't concentrate on which colour i wanted. hahaha, i was so glad when the filing thing was over.

i cannot wait for my nails to turn all ugly! so i can get a new colour! hahah and i'm gonna keep my nails long. my nails look really small now. like tiny tiny. hahah. oh oh mandee's back from tioman and she bought us friendship bands. how thoughful of you mandee! love love.

4 July: Business School Awards Ceremony


DHL, it never crossed my mind that i would be on that list. even J.Sim was like 'wow aqilah. i didn't know. congratulations ah.' hahaha! he gave me the 'i didn't know you can make it' look. thanksss ahhhhh but yknow what? i am just as stunned as you.

but the highlight of the day was walking across the stage with my high high heels. i thought i would fall face down but thank god that did not happen! so nervous knowwww. when walking down the steps, i had to hold jeremiah's hands. hahah, yes i was that pathetic. for a moment it felt like as though jeremiah was my prom date. HAHAHAAH!! and em kapt saying 'eh skali you fall', it got me paranoid for awhile. hahaha.

and mandee's friend laughed at my name when he saw it along business concourse ): idiot. hahaha. i know lah my name is like sooooooooo lonnnnnnggggg like the mrt train. actually i think my dad anyhow clump letters one but i still love my name lah.

10 July: Night Festival


went for the Night Festival with my bacin! i just realized that its been ages since i last saw her and i din't even take any picture with her that night. hows likes thats? nehmind nehmind. anyways, the night was awesome especially the firework display. hahaha! we were pretty certain that they were actually filming for 'The Day After Tomorrow' instead of having a night festival because everything was so movie-like from the lights, cameras, bombs and all that jees.


the fireworks were pretty intense, we were this close to being flamed by those fireworks. ZOMGZ! pls pls no..

FLEA MARKET @ SAM!! after that. i was like a kid in a candy shop. almost went crazy. hahaha, if only i had more cash. i dare not use the money that my sister gave to me. hahah! i bombarded suhara with 'geng' and 'i suke'. hahah, i know she wanted to slap me so badly but she was so nice to tolerate my nonsense. hahaha, sayang kau!

at 1am, we cabbed home where i shared with her my drama stories, only to find out that i accidently dialled that person's number whom i was talking about. and the person heard everything. HAHAHAA! i told you my life was colourful.

okay i can't find other pictures. so that will be it for now. will be out with K later. popeyes, yes/no?

i can stay awake all night just staring at the city lights.



well well well.. who knew i would end up with this guy right here huh. little did i realize that i've known him for close to 3 months already. yup since 23April? for those who didn't know, let me tell you. i met K at a club. hahaha! okay okay i can see heads shaking in disapproval everywhere. hahaha! i know i know.. even i, myself am shaking my head in disapproval. this is because i've always shared this rule with my sister and girlfriends: NEVER GET TOGETHER WITH A GUY FROM A CLUB. who would have thought i will break this 'golden' rule that i've dutifully abide by ever since i started clubbing at the age of 17. omg omg. tbh, when i first knew him i didn't take him seriously at all. the very next day, i remebered blogging about how guilty i felt for clubbing after school has started but nothing about him. at that time, he was insignificant. and i mean c'monnnnn.. afterall he is a guy from a club. what are the odds that he isn't just like any horny guys there? hahaha. and guess what? he didn't take me seriously as well. hahaha!

and here we are now, together. and i must say being with K makes me happy. but of course everything is so sweet and nice now, even the ugly looks gorgeous. i'm well aware of the risks, my heart may be crushed once again. i don't know how this relationship will turn out but i am willing to take this chance and pray that this new relationship i share with K will be more meaningful.

with that, i apprieciate having you now K. thank you for the JellyBeans! thank you for cooking me breakfast today! thank you for fetching me from school at night! thank you for being so selfless; not going clubbing with your friends if i won't follow and always putting me first before others. for that, i thank you. i'll try lah to cut down on my clubbing kay b? okay maybe not now hah!

a letter with gold writings


this few days, i find that i get exhausted easily and i sleep a lot. like i'm constantly taking short naps. not good. maybe i need some vitamin C, yes? anyways, my saturday night was spent with the boyfriend watching a late night movie in town. its been a long time since i caught a late-night movie. i love the feeling of being in town at 4am when the roads are so empty. such tranquility, i'm fond of.

Ice Age 3 so funny!! i was laughing on my own because K was fast asleep throughout the whole movie! lol. the moment the movie starts, he went into deep sleep already. hahaha. occasionally he would wake up to re-position himself, then went right back to sleep. hahaa, tsk tsk. still, Ice Age 3 was hilarous! i had great fun watching it (alone).

today i went to a friend's wedding and i think zul slimmed down. smangat dier slim down, nak kawin punyer pasal.. may you two have lots and lots of children! hehehe.

anyways, i have this HUGE HUGE HUGE CRUSH ON THIS MALAY GUY ON TV!! anyone watches anugerah? does the name 'wawan' rings any bell? hahahahaha, yes I LOVE HIM! he is so charming, charismatic, sweet and everything nice. i cannot not watch him sing. its so weird because i don't usually like mats unlike my sister! hahahah. i really really love him! ZOMGZZZ! BUT but!

KAI > WAWAN

K, y'know i still love you more. hahaha. wawan is just my celebrity crush. hahaha!

okay i should take a nap before starting on ticketing. hahaha.


to zebra who may or may not be reading this, i just want to say that i won't and will never hold any grudges against you. i loved you once but now its no longer the same. no matter what, you'll still part of me. best wishes.

so i drew a new face and i laughed


i started my day with less than 2hours of sleep. surprisingly, i didn't feel dead-beat. i was pretty normal (more focused actually) as though i slept for my usual 5/6 hours. haha. more importantly i want to thank this guy here, Kai, for driving me to school for the past 2 days. i know you were just as tired, falling asleep in the car while waiting for me to get ready for school.

tbh, i never thought that i would ever break free from my previous relationship. somehow i thought my 3year relationship with zebra would last forever. haha how naive of me. but now i'm grateful to have moved on and knowing you was the best thing that could have happened to me this year. i won't look back and regret giving you that second chance. one more thing, i love the late-nights with you. swishing down the deserted road while singing to songs on the radio, our usual 'where do you wanna go now?' and even the countless times you made a worng turn.

but pls pls no more shocking, drama news from you. i might just have a heart attack. now sing me a song while strumming that guitar.

here's a picture of 2 of the MAMMOTHS. hahah, weird NSmen.

I'M CURRENTLY AT THE CONCOURSE WITH MANDEE AND ROLLY, people watching and taking photos. I JUST WANT TO SAY I LOVE THESE TWO IDOITS! THE CONCOURSE IS FREAKING WARM THOUGH AND ITS SPOILING MY GOOD MOOD. OHMYGOD! 3 MOMMOTHS JUST WALKED PAST US!! ARHHHHHHH~


this was from a week ago? yes. haha. if you are obsessed with me, please right click and save this image. haha okay no i'm kidding. this is what happened when you are stuck with rolly and a laptop with a boring project to complete. but i'm not complaining! oh let me warn you, the set of pictures below is fucking uglay! ROLLY YOU LOOK LIKE AN ALIEN! hahaha


i couldn't stop laughing lah when she started distorting her face. KAHAHAH! we are too ugly. we ought to be shot.

clubbing songs are giving me a mind fuck!

i just texted rolly asking her to do something related to MICE. i feel super super horrible cos its like a SUNDAY?? i mean no one is supposed to do anything on a sunday except have fun. gosh gosh pangs of guilt is hitting me. hahaha.

anyways, yesterday i received several concern texts from people. its always nice to know that there are people who cares about me. as for my sister, i know you are going through a rough time yourself so i'll try my best to be there for you just like how you've always got my back. i wonder what men want from women? like seriously. if you have a girlfriend can't you just be loyal to them for fuck's sake? haiyohhh. nevermind. maybe its time for us women to turn the tables around and start playing the guys out? yes, i believe so. HAHAHAHA! just writing that gives me such satisfaction.

i have been listening to Sean Kingston's Fire Burning & Sean Paul's So Fine wayyy too much and its giving me the clubbing pangs. i swear A MASTER PLAN will take place after the projects. but that's still a longggg way to go so i guess i'm stuck with listening to clubbing songs only. hahaha.


credits to rolly. hahaha, me and mandee are starting to look like ghosts in the background.

my saturday was spent at the school lounge. hahaha! mandee gave me and rolly THE ULTIMATE SCARE! cheebye. hahahaha, i finally experience how it feels like to have a heartattack. wah, i felt my heart squeezed! hahaha. rolly and me rocked out to countless songs yesterday. project meetings are becoming too hip and happening. this cannot be true because project meetings are supposed to be dead boring. hahahah! well as for wenny.. he was just whining continuously. he whines about everything, i swear! from the lack of food to the dirty carpet that he was sitting on. haha. BUT WE STILL LOVE YOU WENNY! and thanks for compiling the report AGAIN.

words have grown so false. i loathe to prove reasons with them.

HI HI HI! so my blog has been seeing short/ single line updates. this is because MICE is simply taking up too much of my time and energy. haven't been getting proper sleep lately and i don't think anyone do actually. i still receive emails from my groupmates as early as 4am. so power! oh yes, been twittering alot. that's the first thing i'll check on when i get on the computer, next will be my blog, then email. hahaha, its a cycle.

today i wore a flowery dress to school. so did rolly! hahaha. it an attempt to pimp myself and look (slightly) pretty because i recently realized that i've been looking like shit in school. hahaha. blame it on the projects!

and guess what? in the afternoon, my thumbdrive totally ditched me and i couldn't retrieve any of the files. i was so upset because i had to redo everything i did for MICE! how fucked up is that?! and that thumbdrive so tak perlu eh like that.. urhhghhhgg. so the moment i got home, i rushed and rushed and rushed through my parts once again and I DID IT OKAY!! WOOOHOOOHOO!


with that said, i shall squeeze a short update now. heh. retail therapy today :) the moment i was done with MICE, i changed and got out of the house immediately! my mum and sister were at Vivo already. they even faster than me lah. hahaha! ZARA WAS A TOTAL CHAOS. ohgod.

so we bought stuffs (this time i used my own money. HAHA) and yet again i got myself another pair of heels. tsk tsk tsk. i think i own more heels than flats now. oh no i'm left with little cash. not enough to get me LadyGaga tickets. SADDD.

oh yes before i end this post, i shall express my gratitude to my sister who dedicated a whole angsty paragraph on her blog to me. THANKS TWIN! oh she just asked me to go clubbing with her next week. lol! & RIP MJ. heal the world, make it a better place~